. . . These Are The Day's Of My Life.

The decision has been made. I'm moving home. *sigh*

Sometimes this makes me feel like a big huge failure. 25 years old moving back in with my parents and little bother and sister. I haven't lived there since I was 18. I have to keep taking deep breaths in order to stave off the waves of panic.

What sealed my fate...two things really. The first being nothing came of my Windsor interview. The second being that as I walked around handing out resumes for a serving job I had to hold back tears. Literally.

I decided its time to regroup and refocus. Maybe I'm doing something wrong. I mean other people seem to be able to get jobs. I've applied to almost 40 jobs in the last 2 months, and I've gotten two interviews...and you know I really thought I might have gotten that last one, because I did not want to move to Windsor. What kind of stupid logic is that? I finally get the job I've been looking for for 3 years and but only if its in a place I didn't really want to move to.

One more bonus about the move home is that my next door neighbour is a Councillor for the District of Muskoka and is looking into jobs/volunteer opportunities for me n the area. I am a little late for the job stuff...most summer positions hire in March, but you never know...I'm going to try to be cautiously optimistic.

I'm also going to be cautiously optimistic with Mr. Muskoka. Who will for now on be known by name. Jason. Or more commonly Jay...so the short from of J, is just so handy! There are still things I worry about, and there wasn't/still isn't any Zsa Zsa Zu. But there's something. I'm not sure what, maybe it won't be enough, maybe I'll run away like I've done before, or maybe I'll give it my all, and still get my heart broken like I've done before. But I won't know if I don't try. I've survived the heart break, and I know I won't survive the loneliness that comes with not trying.

And so I pack my car and look to future.

Hard to Hear

I called Terrapex yesterday to see how the hiring process was coming along. And found out that they had hired someone else.

Grr that sucks.

I still haven't heard from the Peterborough job. I'm thinking its not looking that good either. I will call them again (for the 3rd time) later this week to see whats up. That interview was so long ago, but they told me they would get back to me either way, and when I have contacted them they've always said no decisions have been made and that we haven't forgotten about you. Thanks for your persistent interest in our company.

So when does persistent become annoying? That's a line I definitely do not want to cross.

Adulthood.

Why were we in such a rush to grow up when we were young and our biggest worry was that Mom would make us eat our vegetables and brush our teeth?

I promise I'll eat my veggies and brush my teeth if I can stop worrying about rent, cars, boyfriends, bills, and jobs.

Waiting Game

My interview at Terrapex went well I think. It is hard to tell sometimes though.

I should hear in about 2 weeks.

Keep your fingers, toes, eyes, knees and ankles crossed for me!

Terrapex

Terrapex.

This is an environmental consulting firm that wants to interview me tomorrow morning for one of two positions, right here in Toronto!

Wish me luck.

Interview - Post Mortem

So I think the interview went well. It was long which I think is better then short. I'll hear back in the next 1 to 2 weeks.

Keep your fingers and toes crossed!

What's in a Fourtune Cookie?

Yum Chinese food. I was lucky enough to be over a friends place a few Saturday nights ago, when the decision was made to order in some Chinese food. Now I'm not gonna lie and say that my favourite part of Chinese food isn't the red sauce, cause it is, but I'm also particularly fond of the cookie, especially the fortune inside.

Lately though I've found the fortunes to be rather, well, disappointing. There not so much fortunes as random words of wisdom that are sometimes wholly incomprehensible. Although on this particular evening I opened my fortune to read "A new work opportunity will avail itself."

Honestly could I have gotten a better fortune? I mean for a girl who has literally been looking for work for 2 1/2 years? I promptly stuck my little fortune on my laptop to remind myself and to boost my self confidence. -- I tried to take a pic for proof but my camera wouldn't focus on the tiny little words, so you'll just have to trust that its actually there --

Now for the best part.

One week exactly after my fortune was foretold, I had a phone call from my good friends Shaunacy. Her Father, who works for the County of Peterborough, heard of a company that's hiring in the area for positions that I'm qualified for. -- this is no lie -- Obviously I'm jumping for joy here. I redo my cover letter and CV, call up the president of this company (its a small company) and let him know I'm interested and will be forwarding on my application. He sounded very enthusiastic and impressed by my call.

So cross your fingers and toes. Hopefully I'll be interviewing there shortly, and then moving to Peterborough.