What lead to this revelation you ask?
Well here's the post NYE wrap up:
I had a wedding to attend on January 10. It was for a friend I used to work with in the middle of nowhere. I was not sure who I would know at this celebration so I was really hoping to bring a date. Lucky for me my friend was able to let me wait until a week before the date to confirm whether I was a plus one or a plus zero.
I went back and forth whether or not to invite Lumberjack. PhD was a big advocate for it. So as time ticked down on my date deadline I called him, my heart pounding a little not wanting to hear no.
I only get voicemail. Not about to ask a guy via voicemail I just say "hi." Then I get back to my friend saying I would be plus zero. Not his fault I know. I never asked him to come. (He did call back about an hour after I confirmed my single status).
We talked after and he said he would be coming by the following Friday if that would work for me. When I called to confirm the night before, he decided it wouldn't work for him. I was disappointed but not really surprised. So I started thinking that maybe it was time to let him go.
STOP the PRESSES
He just called again to see if I was available tonight (I'm not, going to watch the towns hockey team demolishe their rivals...at least I hope so).
So maybe the story is less finished then I thought.
But I'm still sticking to my guns. I'm putting myself out there for a guy I'm not 100% sure I'm into. I don't want to lead him on any more then I want to get my hopes up. A long distance relationship is hard enough as it is without constantly reassuring both him and myself that I am actually interested in him.
I will likely continue to see him on a very casual and infrequent basis. Maybe we will go somewhere maybe we won't. Either way, there will be no more tears.
He just called again to see if I was available tonight (I'm not, going to watch the towns hockey team demolishe their rivals...at least I hope so).
So maybe the story is less finished then I thought.
But I'm still sticking to my guns. I'm putting myself out there for a guy I'm not 100% sure I'm into. I don't want to lead him on any more then I want to get my hopes up. A long distance relationship is hard enough as it is without constantly reassuring both him and myself that I am actually interested in him.
I will likely continue to see him on a very casual and infrequent basis. Maybe we will go somewhere maybe we won't. Either way, there will be no more tears.