Freaking Out.

I am freaking out. Seriously freaking out. Stomach in knots can not concentrate on what I'm doing freaking out.

I am sitting in my office dragging my feet on a particularly complicated and incredibly uninteresting assignment when I realize: Hey its pay day! Woot Woot. When you only get paid once a month, pay day is definitely a day to look forward too.

So I navigate over to the TDCanadaTrust website to ensure all my riches made it safely into my dwindling bank account. I immediately realize something just isn't right....

Upon further investigation, I realize my paycheque is missing about $400. wtf?

My entire "paycheque" for the month of October is $5 shy of my rent. (please do note, my tuition is deducted from my pay therefore I do not have to come up with $2500 3x a year)

$400

I don't know about you, but to me that's a lot of dough. When I so carefully mapped out my budget for the coming year as a student based on last months pay and a thrice yearly scholarship cheque, that $400 was allocated to gas, food, and fun.

Maybe (maybe) I can cut down on my gas. I am an environmental science student. Do I really need to drive everywhere? -I don't actually drive everywhere, just to school and to see friends on weekends. (sorry to all my friends I will no longer be seeing....you will have to come to me)

Maybe I can cut down on my food. I mean I don't need lunch everyday (do I?) , and KD now comes with whole wheat noodles (does whole wheat make up for the fact there basically no nutritional value what so ever inside that blue box?). One box does me 2 meals and it's only $1.50! The time for creativity is now...it is also the time seek out and find as many events or invitations that include free food.

But to cut down on my fun? My FUN! My instincts scream NO! In general I do very inexpensive things for fun (except the occasional vacation....). I hardly ever go shopping and I am serious need of some new wardrobe staples. But I guess (sigh) food comes before fashion.

I guess I have to tighten my belt (not that I can afford one). And maybe think about applying for a loan (something I really wanted to avoid).

So so long luxuries like Starbucks and lunch. Maybe I'll see you in 2 years.