I've been gone a long time now.
The reasons for that include depression and anxiety which was solved which medication and the difficult decision to withdraw from school.
I had attempted to write several posts about how the depression felt to me, but as I read them over I found them to dark to keep, as I am really trying to put the last few months behind me and start 2010 with a fresh outlook.
I'm feeling better and more optimistic then I have in over a year. For the first time in a long time I am excited about my life. I'm nervous too, but it's more a nervous anticipation for the future holds as opposed to the anxiety of the past.
I plan to get back to blogging, about my attempt to really find my place.
After all,
There's no where to go but up.
holy shit, that sounds an awful lot like my last year! If you were to read posts from April and whatnot, you would see that mine were pretty dark as well. I lost all my readers. Sure, it SAYS I have 21 readers, but no one comments. :/
ReplyDeleteI don't think anyone really reads me anymore. But that's ok. I do it for me. Either way I'm glad you're feeling better.
Welcome back.
ReplyDeleteI'm not sure I believe in 'too dark' but the most important opinion is obviously yours. I enjoyed what little exposure I had to you previously and I hope that your year finishes on an up and that 2010 rises from the word go.
I was wondering where you went! Your going home for Cmas? I will call you! Or you can call me.. :)
ReplyDeleteI know what having depression feels like, and I know the battle that comes along with medication prescribed to control the anxiety.. I will be here for this journey with you! It's not all fun, but we can do some self exploration together.
I'd like to hear the whole story when you have time too!