Hmmmm.
Dating two boys at the same time can be a little stressful.
Trying to see both of them equally. Which is incredibly hard when one of them lives two hours away.
Things with Fashion have been moving along, and yet not moving along. I spent most of last night hanging out at his place. We watched a movie and snuggled on the couch, but we have yet to really kiss each other.
Seriously though the goatee its a little bit scratchy. How do you deal with that with someone you don't know all that well, and it does look kind of cute. Its a tough spot.
Sunday was also the infamous 3rd date. Now I don't know that it works in reality that the 3rd date is the traditional night that you sleep together. I was however invited to stay the night.
I declined.
Here's where I get all girly and worried about feelings and maybe I'm not as into him as he is to me. He called yesterday morning just to say hey and that he had a good time the other night. He called this morning to say he was able to rent the movie we had originally planned to watch on Sunday but it was out.
I didn't answer.
So maybe I'm not acting girly, but guy-y.
I will call him back later today. He wanted to get together after my soccer game...but then there's me thinking, I've already seen you 3 times this week. Back off give me a little time to adjust.
Sometimes I wonder whats wrong with me? I spend a lot of nights alone in bed wishing for that connection. And here's a guy, a nice cute guy and me making excuses not to see him.
Maybe I don't want things to go to far with Fashion while I'm waiting to see what could happen with Muskoka?
Mr. Muskoka and I have a date this Friday night. Maybe this will help to settle my mind.
why can't you spend this much time with Mr.Fashion and still date Mr.lives two hours away! when you have the opportunity? Don't worry about it until the "are we dating only eachother" conversation comes up- then decide if you want to only be dating him. Mr.Fashion I mean.
ReplyDeletep.s it's cute that he likes you alot, and isn't it always time for someone to be a little more into you than you are to them.. who knows, you might even fall for him.
Everything you said is true. However, while I may want a real relationship with someone I can count on, the idea of trusting someone again, is still scary enough. I've always needed that extra push in order to fully commit to a new relationship.
ReplyDeleteAnd I think since I've spent the last 8 months with just myself as company, I've gotten very used to having a couple nights to myself a week, but now, with work, soccer, friends and two guys on the go...my next night to myself is Sunday...meh I'll survive.