So Dating....

Ok. I have been single now for how long? Six monthsish. So I suppose I have to date people, in the traditional sense of the world. And its definitely not as easy as I'd kind of hoped it would be. Not that I think that relationships themselves are easy, but I kind of thought/hoped that just the initial dating wouldn't be quite so hard.

For starers how do you meet people. Now its not like I'm not surrounded by men on a regular basis, b/c at my place of work I am. But to date I've only met one I'd want to go out with....unfortunately he tore his groin and won't be playing hockey for the rest of the season. Granted most of the men at my place of work are to old for me, so maybe not the best place...

And let me tell you about M who I was seeing/dating but am pretty sure that has ended.

Now I had a big crush on M about three years ago, yet way back then he had a girlfriend. But now he's single. So my good friend K set us up. She came along as a buffer on our first get together as I hadn't seen him in three years, and she and him were friends. As things were going well, she bailed, and the two of us chatted. We set up a date on our own for the following Saturday night, were he offered to drive the 2 hours to take me to dinner.

Now this date went well....well at least I thought so. We ate, we talked, we laughed...we came back to my place.....just for coffee I swear. And then he went home. Honestly I didn't want him to stay over, I mean seriously, what kind of girl so you think I am? However, we did sit next to each other on my love seat (how appropriate eh?). I laughed at his jokes, touched his knee, looked at him when he was talking to me, told funny anecdotes...and yet nothing. No return touching. I thought I gave him all the signals to kiss me...but apparently not.

That is about as forward as I can be. I am not one to make the first move. I don't like to chase the boys, I like to BE chased.

So I'm dealing with the fact that he's a little shy, and the opposite of any guy I've ever dated, but hey, looked how well those boys turned out. We had made tentative plans for last Thursday, but then I never heard from him. (Which really is fine as I had my fortune cookie job interview last Thursday and would have had to cancel). He did email me (yes that's right email) to say he'd been busy working at both his new job and his old job. I wrote him back to tell him about my job interview. And I haven't heard from him since.

So we're not dating right?

Not that I'm heartbroken or anything. We didn't even kiss. And I wasn't sure I had "the feelings", add to that the shyness, and the distance...its no great loss, but still it was exciting.

It's the possibility. I miss the possibility, the flirting, the butterflies.

I miss the butterflies.