Babies

I took last week off.

Went up to my parents and enjoyed the sun and the lake. (It was finally 30ish degrees C!). Aside from the fact that I don't really need a reason to take a vacation my best friend was visiting from the land down under.

Double K is a girl I have known my entire life, I don't remember meeting her because we were less then a year old when my Dad and her Mom
ran into each other in our small town's post office. We don't see each other much these days as she has been living in Australia for about four years now with her fiance.

This particular visit was extra sweet as she hadn't been in Canada since fall of 2007, the reason for length of time between visits is this....she had a baby!

Marli Morgan, born Sept 18 2008.

I got to meet this darling girl on her 8 month birthday.

It was love at first site. I would have teared up if we hadn't been in a large group when I saw her! She looks just like her Double K. Its amazing.

Despite the fact that most of my friends have babies or want babies as soon as possible I was never part of that crowd. I think kids are cute and all, but I was never sure if I wanted one myself.

This may stem from many reasons, starting with the overwhelming responsibility and ending with the lack my lack of a serious/or long term relationship in a few years. But seeing that little girls face light up when she saw her mother and how my life long friend absolutely glowed even when speaking about her....for the first time I know that I do want kids.

Not right away. But one day.

But for now I'll settle on being the best Auntie. I am very happy to announce the Double K, her fiance and Marli will be moving back to Canada this fall on account that they are expecting their 2nd child this Decemeber! They will be moving to Vancouver (which is approximately 4000kms from me) but at least they'll be in the coutry!

Double K would like everyone to know that nursing...not a perfect birth control method! She hadn't even gotten her period back...so it took her a bit to notice something was 'off'. They are happy and busy and will soon be busier, as by Christmas they will have a newborm and and 13 month old!



* yes I am the Auntie that fed the baby lemon...I wanted to laugh at her sour face...however the trick was on me...no sour face. The girl likes lemons!

Garbage

I have been wondering what to do with my garbage for awhile.

Yes, I recycle, but I can't compost. I live in an apartment so I have no backyard, and my city does not pick up compostables.

But thats not really what I've been curious about.

I have never been one to buy garbage bags. I mean seriously do we need more plastic bags? I have always used old grocery bags to line the pails in my kitchen and bathroom. But since cloth bags became so readily available and many stores (even the upscale ones) are charging for bags my supply of 'free' garbage bags has dwindled.

So what to do?

Continue to get plastic grocery bags every 3rd shop to keep my supplies up? However pop culture would have one believe that using plastic is evil. But that is at least better then buying new plastic bags thats sole purpose is to be thrown out...at least I'm reusing right?

Yesterday though I discovered biodegradable garbage bags. $4.99 for 20 bags for the very small ones (roughly 25cents a bag). So still more then paying for grocery bags which run between 5 and 10cents.

The bags actually seem different then regular plastic. And it says right on the box to keep them dry and inside to maintain their integrity. Hopefully this is a good option.

Can't Do It.

Phone sex.

I can't do it.

Lumberjack and I had our first encounter with, I suppose, the inevitable last night.

The phone was ringing as I stepped out of the shower.

“Hey you just caught me getting out of the shower”

“So you’re not wearing anything”

“No actually I’m not”

“Tell me what else you’re doing”

And that’s were I start laughing and say sorry I can’t do it.

One would think someone in an LD relationship might enjoy a little sexy time over the air waves. But me I find it forced and fake.

I’d rather do the real thing or nothing at all….

Long Distance....?

Lumberjack and I are officially in a long distance...er...something.

As I've said before he lives in Timmins, which is 8 hours away. Lucky for me he works on the road and that brings him near me fairly regularly.

But not lately and not in the near future.

They have him traveling all over northern Ontario.

Not sure when he'll be back to where the snow has been gone for over a month. (seriously his plans last weekend included keeping beer cold in a snow bank*. It was 24C where I was, and thats tanning weather!)

Was I premature in saying that long distance would work? Does it ever work? The only time it makes sense is in short predetermined lengths of time (you know a 3 month internship out of town sort of thing). We are long distance indefinitely. No end point. We never even had a relationship in order to base this on. It seems crazy to be even attempting a relationship. Yet when I climb into bed at night its his arms I wish it was his chest my head rested on, his arms around me.

I'm hesitant to call him my boyfriend. I don't feel like a girlfriend. We talk regularly. We laugh. We complain about how long its been since we've seen each other, taking comfort in the fact that the other feels the same way.

Ultimately it comes down to the fact our lives are kilometers apart. 682km. Can that distance be bridged?

We are tied together by threads.

Thread can be incredibly strong, or snap in an instant.




*note I originally wrote this a few weeks ago and am hoping that the snow has finally melted up there, however they are calling for some this weekend.

Evidence of a Lost Mind II

Two more tidbits to prove I have indeed lost my mind:

1. A few weeks ago I drove back and forth down the same 2km stretch of road trying to decided which way I needed to go only to realized I had it right the first time. I have lived in this city for almost 9months and still am constantly lost.
   
2. Last weekend I got lost again on the same stretch. Only this time my parents were party to my disorientation. (The reason I was driving? I apparently know my way around....)
3. Last night after spending 3 hours diluting samples to be analyzed today I stored them in the fridge so would stay fresh. Unfortunately what I determined was a fridge was indeed a freezer. (Don't worry samples not ruined...just frozen and in need of thawing before they can be run)
   

Results

Have you ever called a Doctors office to get results?

They don't like it.

They like to remind you that they will call you if something is amiss.

I however do not like the "no news is good news" policy. My mind wanders, and I stress over the unknown.

So I called today concerning my blood test results (well I attempted to call 4x between 9 and 9:45 and the call went straight to voice mail, so I went in).

Apparently all is well. Glucose, B12, iron (which I was impressed at as I'm a pseudo vegetarian).

No reason for me to be feeling so sluggish and unfocused.

No magic pill for me *sigh*

I am now attributing my lack of energy to SAD (such a perfect acronym!). Seasonal Affective Disorder. Which basically means a lack of Vitamin D due to lack of sunlight available in these parts, as well as my total lack of exercise over the winter months.

So to that extent I am now getting my heart rate pumping for at least 20mins a day and getting outside and into the sun. I feel better, still having a hard time with motivation and focus, but maybe I'm just out of practice.....