... in 27 Days.

Another birthday. Another year older. Makes you wonder and reflect on things of the past. there are so many things that I wish I didn't do, and so many things I wish I did. But I don't know if changing what I did in the past would change what is now. I don't know that I would want to change what is now.

At times I am happier then I've ever been. At times I still can still feel so lonely. I think that's true probably of everyone. We cycle.

At least I know I still look good. Not one of those over the hill 26 year olds.

And how do I know that?

Well.

The other night I was watching a sunset alone by the falls. When this young kid asks why I am all alone. When I tell him I'm watching the sunset he asks if he may join me. I say yes, because it would be rude not too, and he sits. He then asks me how old I am, to which I respond 25 (as this was just before my birthday). A kind of stricken look crosses his face. Then he tells me that he will be 17 in 27 days.

17 in 27 days...

Nice too know I still look young enough for 16 year olds to hit on...just wait until I get braces sometime in September. All the high school boys will be after me ;)

Unbelievably Busy

I very quickly went from working almost 30 hours a week to 50+ hours a week. And when you add in, almost 15 hours a week in commuting...it doesn't leave a lot of extra time for fun, or anything else, such as laundry or washing out the inside of my car (FYI, when temperatures soar into the 30's random cans of pop can explode when left in the back seat).

I kind of miss my more active social life. I have a lot of nights in now, or at least very early nights. I find getting up at 6 am every day makes me incredibly tired by 10pm (if not earlier). But I'm also kind of looking forward to settling into fall with a more constant routine. How boring does that sound?

I'm also kind of dreading the fall because of the utter lack of social life they will leave me. Most everyone I know will be heading back to the city and staying there. Leaving me here living with my Mom and Dad. And just a few other friends my age...all of whom are married, and most have children. Not that there's anything wrong with that. But the thing with my married friends is that they really like to know what goes on in a single girls life...and when nothing is going on, they like to take it upon themselves to set me up with any single men they know. So seeing as nothing is going on these days (as the only people I seem to hang out with are married, I haven't been meeting over many single men on my own). So sometime soon I am being introduced to some guy.

Obviously things with Crush #1 and #2 aren't progressing. I have a bad feeling that #1 is staying with the gf. And I couldn't believe how sad that made me...my first crush in 2 years. However things have been getting more flirty with #2. Every time we work together the tension is there. But he will be leaving to go back to school in a few weeks. And that will be then end of that.

Oh Muskoka in the fall. At the very least it will be an experience. One I haven't had in 8 years.